I wish I can say this a few months down. "Looking back at my previous posts, I want to forget them. It was a period so dark and morbid, and mostly in gray and blue. It was written in gray and conveyed all my blues. "
W said that she feels a dark cloud hanging over her every time she walks to school. Omg I feel exactly the same way.
Sometimes I get this inexpressible feeling. Like shocked mixed with incredulity at how you do things. I can't believe you would have the heart to do that or say that to me but you just did. I can't accept it but the fact is, it has happened and I must face it. I still don't believe how hard-hearted you must be.
Yesterday was so tiring, emotionally, mentally and physically. It's been so crazy now. Everyone's acting real childish and being all martyr-like and victims of stress. Hmm...mad week.
I realise I'm writing in a very toned-down manner. Almost sober. Again, another sign that things are not normal. I'm in a very high surreal state right now due to sleeping approx 2 hrs every night. Morning, if you'll have it.
But I found a way to solve my...insomnia(?) It's so simple! All I had to do was sleep upside-down. ^^ In this topsy-turvy world, I guess it'd make more sense for us to see the world upside-down.
You know, in this place where the people who curse you are your friends, the ones who ignore you are the ones who claim they love you, and the people who don't know you are the ones who ask about your welfare. I might sound so cynical, but its true. And things do look a lot clearer now.
Now there's just the nightmares to deal with...
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
