Saturday, September 19, 2009
I wanna be rich,
and I want lots of money.
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny.
I am so tired of having headaches everyday! Why must I put up with this. Sometimes I think its unfair. Ah whatever life's like that.
I feel so numb I don't know why. I feel strangely happy everyday. Though I think my subconscious is depressed. Yay. I think I'm living a double life sometimes. Conscious and unconscious. In my dreams I'll wake up crying. Or its simply just lots of crazy and high partying. At least I'm having a life I never had.
(I can't wake up from this nightmare. Though I've a feeling my outside body is already dead. Please let me wake up before its too late.)
I want lots of clothes
and I want lots of diamonds.
I heard people die while trying to find them.
I've been going to school happily for exams. This is slightly abnormal. Considering that I'm the kind who...ah whatever I just don't like it. I keep shopping. I'm going to hibernate and save money after As. Then hoard so much money my bank will have more pounds than me. (I'm freakin gaining weight)
Now I'm not a saint,
but I'm not a sinner
and everything's cool as long as I'm gettin' thinner.
Oh, and I managed to screw Othello too. Screw up. Screw up the paper. Damnit.
First I said he was pathetic.
Then I said he was an outcast and everyone discriminated against him.
Thirdly, I said that deep down, he knew it himself.
Omg what the hell was I thinking? I didn't think I had that much suppressed emotions about Othello I had to slam him in the exams.
Oh gosh. And no one gets away with ze karmic repercussions of dissing Othello. I mean, look at what happened to Cassio. And that turbann'd Turk (who is also racist, btw). Oh hell.
Oh tell you guys sth interesting. I was reading my lit notes. "Arise, black vengeance from thy hollow hell!"
I wrote: Hollow, because all the devils are not there but here.
Freaky, I didn't know the interpretation was so creepy.
Anyway. Jiayou to all who are curently depressed or sad or unhappy. Please don't let As or AJ get to you. Its so not effing worth it.
And I'm a weapon of massive consumption,
and its not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function.
I think I might swear off drinking anything.
Okay swear off shopping and drinks. Neighbour'll be so proud of me. I might need like a few years. But I'd probably be dead from all this nonsense.
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore,I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore...
And when do you think it will all become clear?
Cos I've been taken over by the Fear.
Hello, here's the easy button for you guys. When the going gets tough, the tough go mugging! Just press the easy button. You guys can do it. Love you all/ (:
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loved on 11:43 AM
