Saturday, January 10, 2009
This is what I've been doing.
I go to blogger.com
I look at the sign-in page.
I decide I haven't anything much to say.
I feel that I would just write a whole load of rubbish.
I close the page.
You are my sunshine,
my only sunshine,
you make me happy,
when times are gray.
You never know, dear,
how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
This entry is full of complaints and petty discontent. Viewer discretion is advised for the intellectually and emotionally challenged, and self righteous individuals.
I haven't been talking to the people I have been talking to since caroling and stuff and I feel decidedly weird.
I can skip all my meals for a day then eat a lot on another. My diet depends on my mood! How pathetic is that.
I miss the anderson people more than ever. And I mean anderson sec choir dudes. Things are just different. Very different.
If you seriously ask me, I will only listen to people I respect. Because the forgive-and-forget if you don't care or pretend to care doesn't hold true for me anymore. If you seriously have no idea what you're doing, keep it shut.
I do think actions speaks louder than words.
Admitting your mistakes is not going to help at all. Yes you've done wrong, so what should you do about it? If the same problems keep occuring again and again and again, I'm going to start thinking perhaps you don't really mean it after all.
Sleeping on the sofa is probably the best thing for me.
I've seen a lot of funny stuff today though. Especially today. Omg, woman, your, "Matrix!" or sth was damn funny la. And I was am-chio-ing when you hopped across the room with a high stool placed...
Okay I admit it, I keep comparing the two. But I can't help it, I AM DISSATISFIED. Pam and Alice agrees.
I think perhaps we should save the politically correct answers for next time, perhaps, when it is needed to scam your interviewer or garner mass support. Just like AP said.
But then again, perhaps I am expecting too much. But to compare it with a bunch of kids. Unfair comparison, you say? So why do we not measure up?
An unhappiness doing what is required. I say again, I am not a realist. I am an idealist. I don't suppose one could be happy due to all the illusions one has.
Okay school starts soon.
What I have been doing to my poor teachers.
Using red ink for assignments. I clarify that I do not use it for writing! Only for marking out purposes. Which obviously confuses teachers.
I do not hand in my work, and my only excuse is..."I don't have a reason for not doing it. I'm just tired." Which is perfectly truthful, but utterly disrespectful to teachers.
I never smile in gp lessons.
I have been plain horrible!
I need to be more understanding. Okay not really, I feel that this is a very practical system. It's not fair not fair not fair! I see people studying so hard. Yet.
I am extremely whiny here.
I am comtemplating if I should post this.
How about I post some happy stuff at the end?
I should do something. Someone once asked why do I always keep changing my bags. I said, "In AJ, what can we change? Nothing. So i change my hairstyle, my shoes, my bags, my pens and my ink color."
I am someone who thrives on change and will become angsty and crazy if things are stagnant too long. I need to talk to people or I would be weird.
I need change.
Yizhen daughter has cut her hair! I wanna cut mine too...except I just did. Which resulted in bangs. -.-
I know how I am babbling a lot.
I wanna say thanks to pam and leon and jenna and alice and joanne and fangqi and henry and weiwei for talking to me, or at least smsing me so I haven't been too nutty, doing up chem tutorials and understanding almost nothing.
I am horrendously restless, I feel. I have that inexplicable urge to run off and fly away in a plane. -.- But what the hell.
This is a weird blog post.
Why do I have a feeling I am just an empty shell and the real me has run away elsewhere?
OH! Btw, please note how semicolons are used. It is a crime to use it wrongly. Ask Pamela is unsure lol.
Please excuse my ranting.
How crazy.
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loved on 8:11 PM
This is what I've been doing.