I am currently in a mid-teen crisis.
18 was a wonderful (albeit not so wonderful, where I spent it) age. 20 is a blasted responsible age.
19 is just...19.
I am...
Doing things I don't like.
Buying things I don't need.
Eating food I usually wouldn't eat.
Drinking soft drinks.
Developing eye bags.
Gaining weight I don't need.
Rude to people who don't deserve it.
Nice to people who don't deserve it.
Sleeping with my heels cos I'm lonely.
Being happy when I'm not.
Living a life I don't want.
OK. That was better.
I am not depressed.
I just have random panic attacks and moments of...contemplative______.
See?!
I can't find the right words to fit into sentences!!!!!!
I have lost it.
I am so thankful Liz and Mh the dears came over to stay.
And Zj who is totally on a quest to make me fat the way he makes food/brings me out to eat. He is soooo sweet! And so are the awesome french toasts. ^.^
And had a crazy night out with the girls ytd! :D I shall blog abt it later.
When I feel like all the karmic disruptions in my life has stopped, or at least stabilized.
I was almost drunk ytd.
But so were everyone else. Lol
