Thursday, Jul 8th, 2010 --You become disoriented now if you must focus your thinking on the mundane world, especially when you are happier to consider more spiritual pursuits. While there is nothing wrong with being a metaphysical guru, it's still important to keep up your appearances on the job. You'll be able to continue exploring parallel dimensions of reality today, as long as you don't attract any undue attention. --tarot.com
Exploring parallel dimensions of reality.
I was really really affected by the guy(woman?) yesterday. I mean, throughout dinner and till I got home I kept wanting to cry. Okay its really pathetic to cry outside but I can't help being haunted (and traumatised, yes) by what he said to me.
I shall start from the beginning.
I needed to top up my card at the station, so I was waiting in line behind a old man. He kept trying to shove in his notes but the machine kept rejecting them. I was kinda dreaming away behind him till I realised the queue forming behind me.
Then I offered to help him and then it was okay. He went off with a 'thanks' and 'I'm going to Buona Vista'.
So after getting on the train, I realised he was in the same cabin so I was contemplating for awhile if I should go up to him and tell him to change at Jurong East instead of Raffles Place, since it was faster.
I stared at the route map for couple of mins and decided it would be mean if I ignored him and let him take the much-longer route. So at the risk of looking weird, I got up and walked to him and tried explaining to him why he should take the other direction.
Which failed, cos he said it didn't matter how long it took cos he had no where to go.
So I was quite embarrassed and I left and walked to another cabin and sat down.
Then after a couple of stops he followed and came up to ask if he could sit beside me. And he kept saying that I was a nice, kind person and that God would bless me.
Okay I suppose any decent minded person would have done it anyway.
Then he asked if he could talk to me. Okay, sure, why not?
"Are you from Mediacorp?"
"Uh, no, uncle no. I'm studying." (Or soon anyway -.-)
He asked me to guess what he was.
"You mean what you work as?
*he shakes his head
What you do?
*he shakes his head
Who you are?" (I mean if he asked if I was from Mediacorp maybe he was working there, or used to.)
"What I am. Something. Give you a clue. Man woman. Woman man."
"Matchmaker."
"No...I used to be a woman."
"Ohh..."
my god.
So he was tranny. Okay. But that's hardly a meet question. Or something to know at introductions.
He started telling me abt himself.
And the gist of it is the lives alone. He doesn't work, has no family because his parents cast him away when they knew she wanted to be a man. Nobody wants him because he is neither here nor there. Prostitutes shun him too. Even though he wanted to pay them a thousand. He drinks because he doesn't want to think of his life.
I told him to go get a job. And he says his doctor says he is not fit to work for 6 months.
And he kept saying he was alone.
He said he would've killed himself, but he believes in God and so cannot commit suicide.
I tried to assure him that God was there and looking after him, but even I was not convinced. His God certainly isn't looking after him. Nor giving him any comfort or solace in anything. God had plans, yadda yadaa, whatever man. tell me another one.
"I don't know, why me? It didn't do anything, I didn't ask for this, I didn't choose this! Why God made me like this I don't know."
Then he said I was kind, had a good attitude and was very beautiful. And I would find a good husband and have a beautiful family and be very happy.
