Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Disturbing dreams...
I know many people have asked me what scary dreams I've had (since I always have nightmares).
I know the word nightmare sounds like a dank dark dream in which a person is always running away from a monster.
That used to be the case.
Now nightmare has taken on a morbid creepier meaning.
It used to be chasing something precious that was taken away from you, or running away from something horrible chasing you.
Dreams are an interpretation of our lives and thoughts.
Now the dreams are filled with riddles,questions, answers and meanings that spill over from mere dreams to reality.
Things that are obscure and vague become painfully clear in dreams. You see things clearest, and you find an answer when you dream. Its like travelling to a Land of Truth, but discovering that you had it with you all the time.
You knew what was going on, you just wouldn't admit it before.
Dreams put us in touch with our unconscious, the deepest level of our existence.
Perhaps its the closest one can get to the Cro-Magnon days. Where humans could interact and control the energy in our minds.
With us using only less than a tenth of our brainpower, who knows what we can accomplish with the utility of our whole brain?
Is the unconscious another dimension, then? A dimension parallel to all other dimensions in which we are unable to go to because we have limited powers?
Or is it simply an alternative one?
Like there would be dark without light, concurrently, there would be un-consciousness in a lack of consciousness.
So does it mean that everything is concrete in reality whereas what is in dreams only imagined?
Are there consequences of your actions from dreams?
Or no matter what you do, it can never every touch you in this realm called reality?
That is only partially true.
My happy dreams have always ended before I could fulfil them, in the case of my extravagant shopping spree in Korea where I got everybody something. But unfortunately, I woke up before I could pay for them, so sadly, I don't have an inch of anything for my pains trawling the aisles of the supermall the whole night.
But interestingly, I have been ocassionally haunted by spectres of my dreams which I have stupidly offended. (Like the time I kicked a skull in my dream)
Of course some might explain it as a secret torment to oneself using psychic abilities unknown even to the perpetrator himself. The deliberate withdrawal of tangible satisfaction to the (almost) tangible manifestation of a phantasm to haunt in reality.
Perhaps one shouldn't be too satisfied in life.
It does one ill.Labels: sick
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Friday, January 30, 2009
Thank you Pamela, Jenna, Sis, Wanchun, Yizhen, Leon and the louhei gang.
LOL the louhei with choir peeps that day was damn good! Thanks Sis! For helping to organise and stuff. HAHAHAXD
In the end Sis(JJ) was the one opening and pouring in all the stuff. Then we are supposed to say 'auspicious phrases' while pouring the seasonings in staring from seasonings top and in a clockwise direction, but for the peanut and sesame bits we didn't know what to say, so it ended with "zhi ma duo duo!(lots of sesame seeds)" and "hua sheng duo duo!( lots of peanuts)"
LOL. Then we started the usual phrases until we got to "zao sheng gui zi(having kids soon)" and decided it was in the wrong context. Then we asked for good grades and "rong yu jing pai(Gold With Honours)"
Perfect words and sequence of adding until...
Yaoxin started the whole thing with his Flying Salmon Move. When opening the packet of salmon, the whole stack of salmon flew up and landed right outside the dish! Lucky it had the ice pack under it. It was hastily flung back into the dish by Yaoxin(again)and landed with a sorry splat. LOL then two slices flew at Pamela and landed either on her or near her, causing total mayhem and the whole bunch shouting and screaming.
Super funny la! Then the louhei-ing was like chaotic and super high! Everyone was shouting and flinging the radish and carrots. I didn't realise until someone dropped the stuff on my hand and I found I had it on my knees too(squatting down below a step where the dish was placed, at the outdoor amphitheatre).
All in all, louhei was crazy and fun! It's nice just hanging out with friends and having fun. So sorry for last minute notice to people who couldn't make it! Me and JJ didn't have any ideas so last minute organise. Heh. Make it up sometime!
Study session today was l o l. All the fourpart blends and the mugging (even though it wasn't that hard, we got things done). The incredulous look on Pamela's face when she opened the door on us and we greeted her in fourpart! LOL then she totally sang this highest note back, asking us to shut up. HAHAHA. Blending is love. I am in love with hearing nice chords. In love. Love you all!
Omgomg I got to so say this. I am in love, no, obsessed with Wanchun's phone! AAAAH it's super cute! I am going to attempt to buy it from her when she gets a new phone. LOL another of my crazy schemes but yea! I am obsessed with her phone. XD You, you, you...
I am rereading Pride and Prejudice for Literature now! How I wish I were living back then! I can sing and dance and read and do absolutely nothing else. Perhaps I might grow to hate my life back there, but hey, that's all I want now.
"When she did come, it was very evident that she had no pleasure in it...said not a word...and was in every respect so altered a creature, that when she went away I was perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no longer. I pity, though I cannot help blaming her.
I need not explain myself farther, and though we know this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it will easily account for her behaviour...
I cannot but wonder, however, at her having any such fears now, because, if he had at all cared about me...and yet it would seem, by her manner of talking, as if she wanted to persuade herself that he is really partial...I cannot understand it.
If I were not afraid of judging harshly, I should be almost tempted to say that there is a strong appearance of duplicity in all this.
But I will endeavour to banish every painful thought, and think only of what will make me happy - your affection, and the invariable kindness..."
-Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen. Adapted from Jane's letter to Elizabeth, Chapter 26.
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